Wednesday, March 11, 2015

A Possible Introduction to Alienus Tempus

This is the newest version of a possible introduction to my memoir

Its said that when you are in the throes of mental illness, when you are truly crazy, that you are
unaware of what the reality of the situation really is. That you are immersed in and
absorbed by irrationality and delusion. So that must indeed settle it then. I am not crazy. Somewhat confused possibly.

For it seems I may at times not be able to distinguish the Koinos Kosmos from the Idios Kosmos, the shared reality and the personal reality. Some think that when the Idios Kosmos tips the scale then you are crazy. I would agree that is a possibility, but would postulate that if your Idios Kosmos is not at least in equal alignment with the Koinos Kosmos then you may not be balanced. Potential Truths are veiled to you. I have an abundance of Idios Kosmos and should be balanced. Alas, I am not.

There has been an assault on my faculties and for some reason, I am not in control as I used to be. There is Another that seeks to restore balance, but in doing so, has shaken the very fabric of my reality and, I would argue, the Koinos Kosmos as well. It is still hidden, but in place. Occult. Waiting for opportunities when its interests would be best served. A master of games, always countless moves ahead. This ubiquitous enigma, not unlike what one unique science fiction writer referred to as VALIS, must have considered June 23, 2002 to be such an opportunity.

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Deja Vu Hollywood

Since the PKD Connection (the series of synchronous events on 6-23-2002 that led me to the late science fiction writer Philip K Dick) there have been numerous times while watching a certain movie or tv show that I experienced Deja Vu or experienced an anamnesis (lost of forgetfulness) event. The deja vu was intense, more intense than any other deja vu I had experienced earlier in my life. The moments in the films in which I experienced deja vu seem to have meaning. A similar but altogether different feeling was associated with a number of Phil's books. In the memoir I'll divulge the details and my thoughts about them. But for now, a few short lists...

  • Barjo (French movie adaption of PKD's Confessions of a Crap Artist)
  • Impostor (based on Impostor short story by PKD)
  • Legend
  • Signs
  • The Matrix Reloaded

          TV Shows
  • 24
  • Battlestar Galactica
  • Babylon 5
  • Alias
  • LOST
  • The 4400
  • Wudang Mountain - Cradle of Taoism (viewed on Youtube)

          Books (all written by PKD with the exception of TSA by Michael Bishop)
  • The Secret Ascension (aka Philip K Dick is Dead, Alas) by Michael Bishop
  • The Minority Report short story
  • The Man in the High Castle
  • Flow my Tears, the Policeman Said
  • The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch
  • UBIK
  • Dr. Bloodmoney
  • A Scanner Darkly
  • Time Out of Joint
  • Eye in the Sky
  • A Maze of Death
  • Martian Time-slip
  • Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep
  • The Transmigration of Timothy Archer

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

A Few Thoughts on Research

Since the events of Summer 2002 I've been stockpiling material that has provided a springboard for more in-depth research. My motivation has waxed and waned over the years so much research remains. I'll still be researching this material long after the memoir is published. Always seeking to refine explanation as understanding increases. 

Listed below are many of the topics I've studied and some of which I need to study further. In a near future post (I know that's rather vague. Sorry.) I'll give specific examples of sources from that research. Keep in mind, I'll only touch on some of these topics in the memoir. 

There will be written, video, and audio examples. Both fiction and non-fiction. The sources of the material for Alienus Tempus has come from and will include personal purchases, loans from physical and virtual libraries, loans from friends, and open source and common domain material from the Web. And last but not least, personal experience. 

And now for that partial list of topics...

The Physical Sciences
  • Neuroscience 
  • Memory
  • Sound & Vision
  • Wave Physics
  • Technology
  • Temporal Lobe Epilepsy

Psychology & Mental Illness 
  • Deception
  • Deja Vu
  • Dreams
  • Subjective Contours
  • Depersonalization & Derealization
  • Depression
  • Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
  • ADHD
  • Magical Thinking
  • Autism Spectrum Disorder
  • Cognitive & Memory Biases
  • Intuition
  • Belief in ESP, UFO's, and other Paranormal Phenomenon 

  • Existentialism
  • Ontology
  • Epistemology
  • Phenomenology
  • Free Will & Determinism 
  • Consciousness
  • Solipsism
  • Reality
  • Time & Time Travel

Fringe Science & Paranormal 
  • ESP
  • Synchronicity 
  • Precognition 
  • Mind Control
  • ESP, UFO's, and other Paranormal Phenomenon 

  • Philip Kindred Dick
  • Specific Fictional Works of Philip K Dick
  • Reality & Simulation
  • Conspiracy 
  • Probability 
  • Extraterrestrials 
  • Government Corruption 
  • Science Fiction
  • Writing
  • Game Theory

Saturday, January 17, 2015

The Subjects of my Reflection

Alienus Tempus concerns mostly with life altering events that occurred during the summer of 2002 and its aftereffects, with a few necessary detours to my teens.

Many of these events blur the lines of conventional reality. Or so the evidence as I see it is so overwhelmingly compelling as to cause me to believe it to be so. I've written the facts down in various format, yet have not analyzed them in sufficient detail. I'm hoping that writing these experiences in the memoir/story format will help loosen the chains that bind my subconscious so I can explore what is really there. When this is done I believe I can finally move on to the fiction which I am ultimately compelled to write.

This is also about the union of and interaction of both mental illness and potentially authentic paranormal anomalous experience. How can we tell one from the other? Are they mutually exclusive? Are my experiences partly the result of mental illness or is the illness and suffering the result of the experiences? This will be a memoir mostly about internal struggle. There were and still are external struggles. These experiences have caused great hardship living in the world and with family. I will explore these matters as well.

Synchronous events occurring on 6/23/2002 inevitably led me to the work of the late science fiction writer Philip K Dick. From that day and forward a plethora of psychic and phenomenal events began occurring, lasting a few years then gradually abating in frequency and intensity though still occurring.

Even though I feel I intimately know Philip K Dick, I profess to be no scholar nor do I desire to ever become one. To me, that would be akin to writing a thesis or dissertation about a close family member or a best friend.

If you are unfamiliar with the Philip K Dick connection you can view a condensed version of the story at House of Ubiquity, where a few others have posted their own unique experiences. My writings are called Alienus Tempus and there are five parts.

Here are links to each of the five parts:

Alienus Tempus: Part 1
Alienus Tempus: Part 2
Alienus Tempus: Part 3
Alienus Tempus: Part 4
Alienus Tempus: Part 5

I hope you take a look. Feel free to comment over there and/or here.

The focus of this blog will be about sharing the process of writing this memoir. The process will include sharing my thoughts about the actual writing of the memoir. I'll talk about some of the source material, and other snippets of research I have done, am doing, or still need to do. I'll share with you more personal things like what kind of music I listen to while writing, and other tidbits that help me focus while writing. And the distractions that can get in the way of productivity. I have both good days and bad, so be forewarned.

I hope that you enjoy reading this blog and continue to stick with it. I really do appreciate you. Another reason for this blog is entertain the idea of accountability. And for that, I need your help.