Friday, April 10, 2020
Sunday, October 7, 2018
Back on Track?
Alienus Tempus is still alive. Rumors of my demise have been highly exaggerated. I've had moments when I've thought I'd never escape the tight grip of mental illness and depression. Despite the struggle I've made recent progress on AT. For one, I've roughed out an introduction.
To understand my life, one must be aware of how Philip K Dick's world has influenced me. I've found to facilitate this, a minimum amount of knowledge of PKD is necessary.
The "mini-bio" is my chapter 2 and is titled "PKD 101". Most of this will already be known by people who are familiar with Phil. It's meant to be a brief review and a gentle introduction to the newcomer. It's just a first draft and resembles more of an outline. More information is needed. And then more revising.
The next phase involves rewriting my experiences so that they will be more engaging. To make it read more like a traditional memoir, with all it's tools that are used in fiction. This involves a delicate balance between showing and telling which will be a challenge. A challenge that can lead to multiple benefits such as memory recall as I place myself squarely in the action.
Another benefit could be that I'll invoke more emotion and reflection as if I were actually reliving the experience. This translates to more engagement and empathy from the reader.
Alas, I have a major obstacle, or block, if you will. There is a lot of necessary telling in my story as it seems a majority of my scenes involve scenarios which don't include people. Unless they happen to be characters on television. This means there is less dialogue as I'm describing events that are happening while I'm usually the only one around. This is how the Universe has communicated with me. Mostly. So, it's a real challenge to make it sound more like the traditional memoir. But, who says it has too? Right?
To understand my life, one must be aware of how Philip K Dick's world has influenced me. I've found to facilitate this, a minimum amount of knowledge of PKD is necessary.
The "mini-bio" is my chapter 2 and is titled "PKD 101". Most of this will already be known by people who are familiar with Phil. It's meant to be a brief review and a gentle introduction to the newcomer. It's just a first draft and resembles more of an outline. More information is needed. And then more revising.
The next phase involves rewriting my experiences so that they will be more engaging. To make it read more like a traditional memoir, with all it's tools that are used in fiction. This involves a delicate balance between showing and telling which will be a challenge. A challenge that can lead to multiple benefits such as memory recall as I place myself squarely in the action.
Another benefit could be that I'll invoke more emotion and reflection as if I were actually reliving the experience. This translates to more engagement and empathy from the reader.
Alas, I have a major obstacle, or block, if you will. There is a lot of necessary telling in my story as it seems a majority of my scenes involve scenarios which don't include people. Unless they happen to be characters on television. This means there is less dialogue as I'm describing events that are happening while I'm usually the only one around. This is how the Universe has communicated with me. Mostly. So, it's a real challenge to make it sound more like the traditional memoir. But, who says it has too? Right?
Saturday, March 24, 2018
Patreon Me
Come check out my Patreon page
I'd like to introduce you to my Patreon account. As some of you know,
I've felt the Universe pulling at my writers brain. Okay, so actually
it's shoving me off my feet.
Historically, it's been that its shoved me straight on my ass; Alas,
I get up and recompose myself every time. Sometimes it takes longer
than other times.
I do know that writing and story is central to my life. If there's
anything, almost nothing brings me the satisfaction and catharsis of
making up extraordinary worlds with characters caught up in the most
uncanny situations.
First, a disclaimer:
I'm in recovery mode from a recent autistic burnout situation.
Comorbid depression, OCD and related conditions combined with the
issues some high functioning autistics deal with can be a recipe for
disaster. My entire life has been a series of ups and downs, the
downs crashing down fast and hard as the downfall of a roller
coaster... and I'm ready to direct that momementum into my fiction
and memoir. -end of disclaimer
Having said that, those of you aware of my "mind"
connection with Phillip K Dick will agree that writing is my dharma;
my duty. It's not just that. I really do enjoy writing. And the
writing will be good. Let the well of untapped potential be tapped...
This Patreon account and my generous patrons will hold me to some
accountability. I pledge to be continuously coming up with original
content for you to pursue and showing you what goes into creating my
content. The writing is the primary focus, though I intend to work on
drawings/sketchings, poetry, and even (a)muse you with my untamed
guitar skills. Who knows, once I've learned Python, perhaps I'll code
a small program just for you.
You can donate on a monthly basis for as little as $1.00 and as much
as you wish. The more my generous patrons donate, the more time and
focus I can place into my writing. The funds will cover both costs of
living and necessary items, etc. for my content creation.
Anything you feel is worth beginning a donation would be greatly
appreciated. I truly feel this is a medium that can really help me
launch my writing career. Major kudos to all current and future
patrons. Thank you so much!
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
A Possible Introduction to Alienus Tempus
This is the newest version of a possible introduction to my memoir
Its said that when you are in the throes of mental illness, when you are truly crazy, that you are
Its said that when you are in the throes of mental illness, when you are truly crazy, that you are
unaware
of what the reality of the situation really is. That you are immersed
in and
absorbed
by irrationality and delusion. So that must indeed settle it then. I
am not crazy. Somewhat confused possibly.
For
it seems I may at times not be able to distinguish the Koinos Kosmos
from the Idios Kosmos, the shared reality and the personal reality.
Some think that when the Idios Kosmos tips the scale then you are
crazy. I would agree that is a possibility, but would postulate that
if your Idios Kosmos is not at least in equal alignment with the
Koinos Kosmos then you may not be balanced. Potential Truths are
veiled to you. I have an abundance of Idios Kosmos and should be
balanced. Alas, I am not.
There
has been an assault on my faculties and for some reason, I am not in
control as I used to be. There is Another that seeks to restore
balance, but in doing so, has shaken the very fabric of my reality
and, I would argue, the Koinos Kosmos as well. It is still hidden,
but in place. Occult. Waiting for opportunities when its interests
would be best served. A master of games, always countless moves
ahead. This
ubiquitous enigma, not unlike what one unique science fiction writer
referred to as VALIS, must have considered June 23, 2002 to be such
an opportunity.
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Deja Vu Hollywood
Since the PKD Connection (the series of synchronous events on 6-23-2002 that led me to the late science fiction writer Philip K Dick) there have been numerous times while watching a certain movie or tv show that I experienced Deja Vu or experienced an anamnesis (lost of forgetfulness) event. The deja vu was intense, more intense than any other deja vu I had experienced earlier in my life. The moments in the films in which I experienced deja vu seem to have meaning. A similar but altogether different feeling was associated with a number of Phil's books. In the memoir I'll divulge the details and my thoughts about them. But for now, a few short lists...
Movies
- Barjo (French movie adaption of PKD's Confessions of a Crap Artist)
- Impostor (based on Impostor short story by PKD)
- Legend
- Signs
- The Matrix Reloaded
TV Shows
- 24
- Battlestar Galactica
- Babylon 5
- Alias
- LOST
- The 4400
- Wudang Mountain - Cradle of Taoism (viewed on Youtube)
Books (all written by PKD with the exception of TSA by Michael Bishop)
- The Secret Ascension (aka Philip K Dick is Dead, Alas) by Michael Bishop
- The Minority Report short story
- The Man in the High Castle
- Flow my Tears, the Policeman Said
- The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch
- UBIK
- Dr. Bloodmoney
- A Scanner Darkly
- Time Out of Joint
- Eye in the Sky
- A Maze of Death
- Martian Time-slip
- Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep
- The Transmigration of Timothy Archer
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
A Few Thoughts on Research
Since the events of Summer 2002 I've been stockpiling material that has provided a springboard for more in-depth research. My motivation has waxed and waned over the years so much research remains. I'll still be researching this material long after the memoir is published. Always seeking to refine explanation as understanding increases.
Listed below are many of the topics I've studied and some of which I need to study further. In a near future post (I know that's rather vague. Sorry.) I'll give specific examples of sources from that research. Keep in mind, I'll only touch on some of these topics in the memoir.
There will be written, video, and audio examples. Both fiction and non-fiction. The sources of the material for Alienus Tempus has come from and will include personal purchases, loans from physical and virtual libraries, loans from friends, and open source and common domain material from the Web. And last but not least, personal experience.
And now for that partial list of topics...
The Physical Sciences
- Neuroscience
- Memory
- Sound & Vision
- Wave Physics
- Technology
- Temporal Lobe Epilepsy
Psychology & Mental Illness
- Deception
- Deja Vu
- Dreams
- Subjective Contours
- Depersonalization & Derealization
- Depression
- Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
- ADHD
- Magical Thinking
- Autism Spectrum Disorder
- Cognitive & Memory Biases
- Intuition
- Belief in ESP, UFO's, and other Paranormal Phenomenon
Philosophy
- Existentialism
- Ontology
- Epistemology
- Phenomenology
- Free Will & Determinism
- Consciousness
- Solipsism
- Reality
- Time & Time Travel
Fringe Science & Paranormal
- ESP
- Synchronicity
- Precognition
- Mind Control
- ESP, UFO's, and other Paranormal Phenomenon
Miscellaneous
- Philip Kindred Dick
- Specific Fictional Works of Philip K Dick
- Reality & Simulation
- Conspiracy
- Probability
- Extraterrestrials
- Government Corruption
- Science Fiction
- Writing
- Game Theory
Saturday, January 17, 2015
The Subjects of my Reflection
Alienus Tempus concerns mostly with life altering events that occurred during the summer of 2002 and its aftereffects, with a few necessary detours to my teens.
Many of these events blur the lines of conventional reality. Or so the evidence as I see it is so overwhelmingly compelling as to cause me to believe it to be so. I've written the facts down in various format, yet have not analyzed them in sufficient detail. I'm hoping that writing these experiences in the memoir/story format will help loosen the chains that bind my subconscious so I can explore what is really there. When this is done I believe I can finally move on to the fiction which I am ultimately compelled to write.
This is also about the union of and interaction of both mental illness and potentially authentic paranormal anomalous experience. How can we tell one from the other? Are they mutually exclusive? Are my experiences partly the result of mental illness or is the illness and suffering the result of the experiences? This will be a memoir mostly about internal struggle. There were and still are external struggles. These experiences have caused great hardship living in the world and with family. I will explore these matters as well.
Synchronous events occurring on 6/23/2002 inevitably led me to the work of the late science fiction writer Philip K Dick. From that day and forward a plethora of psychic and phenomenal events began occurring, lasting a few years then gradually abating in frequency and intensity though still occurring.
Even though I feel I intimately know Philip K Dick, I profess to be no scholar nor do I desire to ever become one. To me, that would be akin to writing a thesis or dissertation about a close family member or a best friend.
If you are unfamiliar with the Philip K Dick connection you can view a condensed version of the story at House of Ubiquity, where a few others have posted their own unique experiences. My writings are called Alienus Tempus and there are five parts.
Here are links to each of the five parts:
Alienus Tempus: Part 1
Alienus Tempus: Part 2
Alienus Tempus: Part 3
Alienus Tempus: Part 4
Alienus Tempus: Part 5
I hope you take a look. Feel free to comment over there and/or here.
The focus of this blog will be about sharing the process of writing this memoir. The process will include sharing my thoughts about the actual writing of the memoir. I'll talk about some of the source material, and other snippets of research I have done, am doing, or still need to do. I'll share with you more personal things like what kind of music I listen to while writing, and other tidbits that help me focus while writing. And the distractions that can get in the way of productivity. I have both good days and bad, so be forewarned.
I hope that you enjoy reading this blog and continue to stick with it. I really do appreciate you. Another reason for this blog is entertain the idea of accountability. And for that, I need your help.
Many of these events blur the lines of conventional reality. Or so the evidence as I see it is so overwhelmingly compelling as to cause me to believe it to be so. I've written the facts down in various format, yet have not analyzed them in sufficient detail. I'm hoping that writing these experiences in the memoir/story format will help loosen the chains that bind my subconscious so I can explore what is really there. When this is done I believe I can finally move on to the fiction which I am ultimately compelled to write.
This is also about the union of and interaction of both mental illness and potentially authentic paranormal anomalous experience. How can we tell one from the other? Are they mutually exclusive? Are my experiences partly the result of mental illness or is the illness and suffering the result of the experiences? This will be a memoir mostly about internal struggle. There were and still are external struggles. These experiences have caused great hardship living in the world and with family. I will explore these matters as well.
Synchronous events occurring on 6/23/2002 inevitably led me to the work of the late science fiction writer Philip K Dick. From that day and forward a plethora of psychic and phenomenal events began occurring, lasting a few years then gradually abating in frequency and intensity though still occurring.
Even though I feel I intimately know Philip K Dick, I profess to be no scholar nor do I desire to ever become one. To me, that would be akin to writing a thesis or dissertation about a close family member or a best friend.
If you are unfamiliar with the Philip K Dick connection you can view a condensed version of the story at House of Ubiquity, where a few others have posted their own unique experiences. My writings are called Alienus Tempus and there are five parts.
Here are links to each of the five parts:
Alienus Tempus: Part 1
Alienus Tempus: Part 2
Alienus Tempus: Part 3
Alienus Tempus: Part 4
Alienus Tempus: Part 5
I hope you take a look. Feel free to comment over there and/or here.
The focus of this blog will be about sharing the process of writing this memoir. The process will include sharing my thoughts about the actual writing of the memoir. I'll talk about some of the source material, and other snippets of research I have done, am doing, or still need to do. I'll share with you more personal things like what kind of music I listen to while writing, and other tidbits that help me focus while writing. And the distractions that can get in the way of productivity. I have both good days and bad, so be forewarned.
I hope that you enjoy reading this blog and continue to stick with it. I really do appreciate you. Another reason for this blog is entertain the idea of accountability. And for that, I need your help.
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